Failure or as I would call it, remodeling ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
It's one of the toughest pills to swallow. Is it really a failure if you tried though? When you have tried so many different ways to make something work, but it just isn’t. Seeing that door close along with several other doors related. Filling you up with emotions too overwhelming to process. It makes you want to find another way through that door, but you can’t. It just wasn’t meant to be and that’s okay.
A failure is: not accepting you tried and can’t in this lifetime. Currently at this state and that’s okay.
As I was typing this, I was going to post it directly on my Facebook, then remembered I HAVE AN ENTIRE BLOG SPACE ON MY SITE! 🤣 What I feel and how I say it, can be however on here.... Because This Is Jazz's Blogs. I am terrible at grammar, punctuation, and spelling... AND THAT'S OKAY.
I have been struggling, a lot. Like everyone has. Filled with emotions. Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts. My struggle is pre-COVID. Pre-birth. I have felt pain my entire life. Not a day has past really that I have been pain free or worried about pain that will come. I have found things that help relieve my pain. Going Vegan improved my skin, but I lost too much weight. Giving up certain foods has helped my body not going into a "sick" state. Using products like Theramu has really improved my skin. Having my toolkit ready to go when I need to work on my wounds. Doing all things and more helps improve my mental, physical, and spiritual health...but at points in my life.... I stop. I stop doing those things to take care of myself. I am only human after all right? I now find myself in my struggles again. I can't keep up with my body right now. Well, more like my body can't keep up with me.
I'm finding myself now needing to close some doors. Actually, I take back all the closing of doors. Apart of moving forward is... moving forward. You can't move forward with a closed door. What you can do is go through that door and remodel the **** out of it! 😉 I know the strength I have is strong, mostly stubborn lol which makes me even stronger. I won't give up, I can't give up. I didn't give up. I'm going to keep on trying until I am happy with my remodel. I have a floor plan and the tools... now it's time to build.